Why I shall never be successful.

Perks of being a middle-class brown girl, that too sensitive.

I shall never be successful. I can never become an entrepreneur, an actor, an architect, a brand ambassador or even an engineer or a doctor. I am a middle class Indian girl with highly educated, but conservative parents. Oh! And not to forget, hypocrites as well.

All I can ever be is a bank officer because that is "safe for girls".

To be successful, there are a few requirements. Firstly, you need to expand your horizon. But good sanskari girls must not stay away from home except for studies and must study only some general graduation course in a local college.

Secondly, to be successful, one needs to invest time in themselves. Four hours college, fours part-time job, two hours into daily chores, seven hours sleep, two hours homework, two hours family taunts("Doesn't help at a single task."), one hour of crying, one hour of putting yourself back together, two hours of "Beta! Just do this one thing for me.". Oh! That's twenty-five hours, but you get the point.

Third way to get successful or rich is to do investments.  The Rs.1500 of my part-time job pays for my college stationery, my internet pack and small perks to abate my depression waves.

So, here comes point number four.
MENTAL STATE
"There is nothing like depression. You are doing it purposely to get attention. You are doing it to trouble us." Like yes! I tried to suicide just to get your attention. But I don't blame my parents for their lack of knowledge about depression; my classmates, too, think depression is a game.

Now comes the last blow to a middle-class girl's dreams. We are not allowed to become what we want.
Can't be a doctor; too expensive course. Can't be an engineer; you can never crack JEE(Thanks, dad!). Can't be a professor; who's gonna pay for your masters? And after all this, I don't even dare to ask if I can join the film industry. Haha! Get that?
In short, we can be nothing except a bank officer because that is "safe for girls".

But now, you must be thinking why I don't fight for what I want. If you are really thinking so, you need to grow up and know how the world works. Exceptions are not Examples. There are even times when you ask for a laptop, a second-hand will do and the reply you get is,"Do you really need one?". The "really" changes everything.

Dear parents, a man doesn't REALLY need anything. One can survive on the minimum food, minimum water one gets. One can survive in the woods or the mountains. But surviving is not living. You got to let us live for once.

Have you read my "DEPRESSION DIARY"?