Depression Diary!

 Beautiful Souls!

Firstly, if you are looking for a scientific analysis of depression and want tested and verified tips to cope up with it, this is not the blog you want...

But,
If you wanna read what resonates with your present feelings and wanna know how a completely drowned girl came out of the water, well, you have reached your destination...

So, let's start with how The Devil Depression begins...
It is the tension and the stress, or the work load and the sudden changes in life, or just the people, close to your heart, not realizing that you can feel too, that opens your mind's window to depression. It's their over-expectations and unrealistic demands that dial Depression's number.
Depression slowly creeps into your mind, first as frustation. Then it is the dire need of a complete break which you don't get, definitely. Then comes your declining performance and people's speculations of what's wrong with you. And then the final nail on the coffin of the peace of your mind, "It's all in your head." or like I got it, "You're doing this to gain attention."
Yeah, right! I want to suicide just to get your attention...

Soon, over a period of time, you forget that you can actually be happy. You think that you have never been good enough. You don't have a low confidence, you have a zero confidence. Your family gets irritated, your friends get bored. And then you realize that you are good for nothing and that your life is a burden on earth.
You suffocate; you wanna get out; you want people to know, understand and help you because you have tried and failed daily, for years, to come out of this quicksand called Depression.
Days, weeks, months, years; all the same.

You have a heartbeat, but you feel still. You want to get out and go to work, but you can't see why. Hopelessness was already there, now lack of purpose gets in. The stillness of your heart and mind tears your soul...
And congratulations! You have successfully achieved full depression.

Depression makes you feel worthless. But you know the best part? You are the sky. The clouds will come, but they can't stay forever. And I'll tell how mine left but in the next blog. I apologise...

Bye Sweethearts! Keep holding on. I am here for you.❤